- a state of being uneasy, apprehensive, or worried about what may happen; concern about a possible future event
- Or, uneasiness about a current situation that scares the hell outa you, or set your TEETH ON EDGE!
Ok, number two is my definition, but it's true, "like totally!" (in valley girl voice!)
I am one of those really lucky people that suffers from anxiety, not just once in awhile, but pretty much constantly. So much so, that I take medication for it, as well as, medication for depression.
I also have a new situation in my life. I know that I have mentioned that I was adopted. What I didn't tell you that I was number 6. A brother, number 5 was also given up for adoption. I truthfully could care less about my other siblings or my biological parents, but this brother I always hoped I'd find. Well guess what, he found me! I've known now for about 4 days, and I've talked with him. I have to admit my mind is blown. In comes definition number 1. I am apprehensive, and worried and in shock about it all. I want him to like me, I want to like him, I want him to feel included in my family. His adoptive parents have died and has no siblings, children or a spouse. So, hence he was looking for his family. I am so glad he found me, but I can't help but be....truthfully I don't know what the next word is, I have had so much trouble defining my feelings. Ayayayay.......
Oh well, I love you guys! Thanks for listening....