Isn't this a darling picture? Oh how I wish life were this simple and beautiful. BUT, alas it isn't. In times of old, life was filled with simplicity, but people were actually old at 40, very few lived beyond that. They worked hard in their world, making and doing everything themselves. Bread was baked everyday, after the wheat was ground by hand, a garden was a necessity, having your own chickens, having a milk cow, and cattle to slaughter. You prayed for rain to water the crops, and money was scarce. Life was hard then, and life is hard now in different ways. We worry about the world and the things going on in it. The television brings bad news right into our homes. We worry if we will have a job, or even if we can find one. Our cars are fixed with computers, they are to complex to fix ourselves anymore. Technology has taken over. The stresses we deal with are different in ways our forefathers hadn't or couldn't even think of. I don't know about anyone else, but the stress I've been dealing with in my life has worn me out. Between the pain I have in my legs, my work, my family and worrying if I'll be able to continue on my own very much longer have taken their toll. I find myself tired beyond what I could imagine when I was younger. Just to get up from a chair or the couch is very painful, and sitting at work is painful too. I cried on my way home from work yesterday, because I just can't deal with the pain any longer. All I could say to myself is "I need help Heavenly Father, I just can't do this anymore." Of course He knows and I know I can, but dang nabbit it's hard. A hot bath with epsom salts helped alot and I actually got a good nights sleep. I am fighting weariness today, but I'm not gonna feel sorry for myself (well at least not right now). Right now I'm gonna be thankful for more blessings, such as:
- My sweet children who try hard to help their Mom.
- My darling grandchildren who always bring a smile to my face.
- For the chance of snow for us tonight. Now that would be totally cool!
- For my glasses so I can see.
- For my very comfortable bed that is so warm and cozy.
- For friends who put up with my sob stories.