I was just commenting on a blog, and I put, "How lovely". The pictures are lovely. Would I have said that a year or so ago? Oh hell no! Words like beautiful, lovely, wonderful, brilliant, would never had occurred to me. "Awesome and Cool Dude" were and probably still are more my style. But it's more than just words. I've had to learn to be more conscious of who I'm talking to in my commenting. I'm really a pretty rough character. Oh I don't look rough on the outside, I try
hard, kinda hard to look nice, but inside I'm pretty rough. I've worked around men for so long, I've gotten a pretty tough hide. It takes a lot to insult me, or hurt me. I just shake my head and dish it back. Okay, please understand one thing, I don't swear. One thing I won't do. And when people take the Lord's name in vain, nothing, but nothing will make me madder. Nor is the F word allowed in my home or anywhere around me. So when I hear the parks guys sitting out in the hallway waiting to go home, using the words I can't stand, I let them know it's not appropriate and to get the hell away from me, OR, I just close my door.
Anyway, back to having a tough hide, my biggest problem is realizing most people don't have as tough of hide as I do. Soooo, I have started to learn that I have to soften up a bit. It has actually been good for me. Learn to be a girl again, instead of some weirdo man/woman thing. Like commenting on Andrew's blog, rambles with a camera. Because he is a guy I just want to say something like, "wow dude, awesome photos man!" Instead I say, "I love your photos, the birds are so beautiful". Both mean the same to me, but to someone else, it could mean that I'm some beach dude calling people "bra".
Just want you all to know, I appreciate your honesty, your inner beauty, as well as, your outer beauty, and I love your blogs and the friends I have made. Or I could just say, " Girls, and Andrew, you are all so rad and totally cool!"