Thursday, May 24, 2012

Sorry...

I gotta tell ya, I'm so worn out from stress and illness, I haven't been commenting on your blogs.   I will catch up one of these days, but right now, I doubt you will see much of me.  My chest hurts, my head hurts and I'm tired!  My oldest daughter is moving on Saturday back to Northern California, and I'm feeling sad about it.  I will miss them all, and I just hate the fact they are going.  AND the stress about  all this, has gotten me down.  It's why I signed off for a while not to long ago.  

You know what?  I really hate living alone, having to do it all by myself.  It would be so nice to have someone take care of me for once.  Sometimes I just get so darned sick of having to do everything. I just can't do it all, then I feel guilty when I don't give my kids the attention they may need, or my grandkids.  Yep, you guessed it, that is what I'm being accused of.  Not being a good enough Mom and grandma.  I just feel so sad and tired.  I know, I know, I'm having quite a time on the pity pot, but when I'm done I will flush and off I will go, hopefully back to normal (whatever that is!)

14 comments:

Florida Farm Girl said...

Susan, me thinks you may turn into a much better mother and grandmother once DD gets to California!!! It's amazing how attitudes can change. Meanwhile, don't beat yourself up. Take a deep breath and enjoy your situation. You can't (and shouldn't) take care of everybody else. But do take care of yourself.

Maple Lane said...

I'm sorry, Susan. You will be missed while you take a few days off and I sure hope you feel the love and prayers of your blog friends while you are away. Take care.

Debbie said...

motherhood, it's a tad over-rated!

i hope i made you smile, i don't know what else to say....

TexWisGirl said...

well, since i don't have human kids, i can only offer a virtual hug - and I laughed at debbie's comment, so hope you did, too. :)

sweetie, don't push yourself to come back too soon - i think the last time you didn't give yourself enough of a break.

Kerin said...

Hi Susan..

I will miss you too, but understand.

Just know that I'm thinking of you, and including you in my prayers.

{[hugs}}
Kerin

Catherine said...

Sending you lots of love and hugs and good thoughts that you get back to yourself. Take care of yourself ~ it's so important!!!
xoxoxoxoxo
Catherine
extra hugs and kisses! :)

Terri Buster said...

All that stress can seriously damage your body. Don't let anyone pile any more guilt on you- take some "me" time, and come back stronger.

Janet said...

Oh Susan, I am so sorry that you are feeling so bad.

Don't let anyone tell you that you are not being a good enough mom or grandma.

Your kids are grown. You got them there. They should appreciate you for that. All of us here can tell what a great person you are. And how much you care. We all love ya, :)

Try to take time for you. And get some rest ok? And remember that you are not really alone. Heavenly Father is there. Talk to him, let him help you feel better. Remember who you are; a daughter of God. :)

I will miss you, but do get some rest. Do to the dr to make sure that your ok too. We will all be here when you get back.

Take care, ((((BIG HUGS)))) Janet W

Tricia @ Bluff Area Daily said...

Susan, I'm so sorry you're having these problems... ya know, kids don't really mean the things they say, no 'experience of life' behind their comments, so please don't take it to heart! I know what you mean about having to do everything yourself... that has a lot to do with what I'm going thru myself, plus, others don't realize it, because they have their spouses to help them, so single women catch the brunt of all the stress! If others would stop & realize, hey, she's by herself, she has to run her household by herself... then, maybe they would understand what's going on... but most people, esp kids, only think about themselves, ya know?!

Thank you for the advice on my post today & take care of yourself, because those pains in your chest don't sound good at all... beeee careful, too, my friend! Don't let others get you down for your health's sake, we gotta be hard as a rock!!!

Madge Bloom said...

Sorry you're sick and tired... I'm there too, just wanting 'normal,' but then I always try to remind myself 'normal' is just a setting on your clothes dryer! Get well and stronger soon...

Andrew said...

Oh dear Susan... I feel for you I really do. My life is fine and family intrusions are quite low. Just take a step back.. smile and then enjoy the next moment.. works for me (after a bit of practice lol) xx
Hugs Drew X

S. Etole said...

Hope you are soon feeling restored. Have a good rest while we await your return.

Debbie said...

i was thinking about you today....i wanted you to know that. sending you a big hug!!

Rose said...

Oh, Susan...I am sorry you were having such a bad time...things will get better. One thing, things never stay the same.

It is just really hard being sick...and having heartache besides.